ESCAPING

I'm tired, I'm sick and wanted to rest for a week because I am feeling so weak.

I looked for ways to cure this sickness and tiredness

I found a refuge, a different world that makes me happy but I know can never be our reality.

In this world, I can be sad but everything is possible even if some circumstances are unpredictable

A sin to think that, I hope I belong to this world 

A wonderful world where I can temporarily escape

The real world is so cruel and so tiring 

Only the people I love hold me into this world

I know this escape from real-world will be over soon and need to face reality

Let me enjoy this for a few more days or a week, but I am still wishing I can escape and be on this world.

EMPTINESS

 

I am not sad nor happy,

but there seems to be an unfathomable pit in my heart.

I can smile, laugh and appear happy in front of everyone,

but there's unexplainable emptiness inside me that I can't endure.

I can comfort and seems to understand anyone,

but I can't even comfort myself nor ask someone to help me.

I will drag you out of your misery,

but sorry I can't hold your hand to pull me out from this hollow.

I am not giving up,

but I can't even give in.

All I can do is wear this happy mask on and weep in silence for no one even I can rationalize what I really feel.